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Tyler
32 Springfield, Illinois, United States
Seeking: Female 25 - 45
Depression sucks. It feels like you're floating in shallow water looking up at the surface. The surface doesn't seem too far away, but you can't ever break it. There's a weight on your chest keeping you from ever getting your head above the water. The water's too shallow for you to turn over and drop the weight, the ground is too slippery for you to catch your footing. You're stuck feeling like you're drowning, unable to breathe every second that you're awake. People come up with all kinds of stupid solutions. "Go to church; get Jesus." I'm sorry, I tried that. He and I aren't exactly on good terms. If he's real he's just a reprobate and a thug. "Get a hobby to take your mind off things." Tried that. Sure it works for a very short while, but then you realize that the whole point of having interests is to share them. I love a bunch of things, but in a world where I can't discuss or enjoy those things with someone else, I simply begin to hate the very hobbies and interests that I have. They're no longer a distraction from the pain and loneliness; they become a reminder of it. "Well get a new hobby then." I've tried every hobby under the f*cking sun. They all end in the same state of despair. "Well, just tell yourself to be happy. Manifest it and it will come to you." Honestly, that's cute. I used to be a hippy, too. The universe doesn't manifest just because you want it to and try to tell yourself that it will. You think I don't look in the mirror every morning and tell myself "be happy you f@cking idiot"? It. Doesn't. Work. You hear sympathy and concern from people you wish would shut the f@ck up and leave you alone. Meanwhile, the people that might be able to help, fck even god if he's actually there, just crickets. In the end the best thing I can do to prevent myself from self harm is to sit in a chair by myself in darkness getting high and drunk until I fall asleep, but that also slowly chips away at me until I'm not even a person anymore. It doesn't get better. I remember shortly after high school trying to convince myself to have hope. Telling myself that if all I experienced up until that point was pain and depression, that it must be the universe balancing itself; that the second half of my life was going to have dark times obviously, but that they'd be bookended by brilliantly happy moments or at the very least decent moments. I tried to convince myself that something good had to happen eventually to balance the scales. I genuinely believed that the universe was Newtonian; equal and opposite forces playing off of each other. A decade and a half later and things only ever get worse. "The universe works in mysterious ways." It's really not that mysterious; it knocks you into the dirt and refuses to let you up. It keeps kicking you and curb-stomping you while you're down.
Adam
37 Springfield, Illinois, United States
Seeking: Female 18 - 35
Scott
37 Springfield, Illinois, United States
Seeking: Female 23 - 50
Damion
37 Springfield, Illinois, United States
Seeking: Female 18 - 40
Bryan
59 Springfield, Illinois, United States
Seeking: Female 38 - 58
Clarence
61 Springfield, Illinois, United States
Seeking: Female 55 - 64
Rich
49 Springfield, Illinois, United States
Seeking: Female 26 - 56
Andrew
38 Springfield, Illinois, United States
Seeking: Female 22 - 50
Matt
23 Springfield, Illinois, United States
Seeking: Male 18 - 26
Eric
46 Springfield, Illinois, United States
Seeking: Female 30 - 40
Leonard
56 Springfield, Illinois, United States
Seeking: Female 32 - 52
Alex
29 Springfield, Illinois, United States
Seeking: Male 20 - 39
Brian
41 Springfield, Illinois, United States
Seeking: Female 24 - 45
chris
49 Springfield, Illinois, United States
Seeking: Female 22 - 55
Chris
40 Springfield, Illinois, United States
Seeking: Female 21 - 55
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Andrew
33 Springfield, Illinois, United States
Seeking: Female 20 - 38
Louis
45 Springfield, Illinois, United States
Seeking: Female 27 - 46
Stefan
38 Springfield, Illinois, United States
Seeking: Female 23 - 28
Oscar
39 Springfield, Illinois, United States
Seeking: Female 23 - 44
Cole
19 Springfield, Illinois, United States
Seeking: Female 18 - 28
Avi
53 Springfield, Illinois, United States
Seeking: Female 30 - 50

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